I love the way nature is painted in bright colors right now. I want to take it all in by taking a deep breath. The last burst of color by mother nature before it all will turn into different shades of grey.
It is already almost mid October. Time rushes by. Good in a way as it means I will get to see C sooner but also kind of stressful too. The days are rapidly becoming shorter and it is getting colder. I feel I have to make the most of those bright sunny days we get in between all the rain. Those precious last sun rays. By the end of October when day light saving time sets in the days will suddenly feel very short.
October is also my my birthday month. The thought of getting older is always one of those thoughts that I keep pushing away. No one wants to get older after turning 25. Well, as you can´t avoid it you might as well celebrate anyway right? My up coming birthday day feels a little bit odd as C won't be here. The good part is that I get to celebrate my birthday at several occasions. One with C when I go down to Switzerland, one here with my parents, one with a few of my closest friends and a bit on my own as well.
I guess I am thinking a little more about this birthday as it is one of those when another decade of my life comes to a closing chapter and a new decade or chapter takes it's beginning. I think one often tends to look back a little more once another decade of life is completed. Sort of a reality check and evaluation of; what have I accomplished, how far have I come, which goals have been met and so on. Like you are giving yourself some kind of progress rapport in life. I find that I often tend to focus more on the things that I might think are missing or lacking than thinking about all the many things that have been accomplished and all the other great things.
Well, I have finally decided that I am going to flip the coin. It is time not to look at things or moments that I feel might be lacking or missing. I am going to focus on all the great things that I have. All the things I have accomplished and all the goals I have reached. I am going to feel proud over my accomplishements. Be thankful and grateful for all the good and wonderful things and moments. I feel very fortunate to be living the life I am. I would not liked to have had it in any other way even if I had the chance to do it all over again. It´s been a decade filled with many wonderful adventures and I hope the next one will be so as well.