Right now tough I am just so drained and exhausted with all the new stuff going on at work. These first days have been very stressful and I hope that it will get better within the near future. I am trying to remember all the new stuff. I am still waiting for my computer and for the moment I am sharing an office desk with the girl that is training me. We still have problems with the internet at the apartment but that will resolve as soon as we move by the end of this week into the other apartment in Hammarbysjöstad where we will be staying longer until we find a place of our own that we want to buy.
I must say that so far I have not experienced that honeymoon feeling of being back. Some things are great but other things I don´t like at all. There are lots of things that I guess I had forgotten about. Right now it all just feels so confusing and the feelings are so mixed about everything. I know that we did not want to spend the rest of our lives in Birmingham, Alabama but I am not sure were we will end up. Moving back takes plenty of time to adjust to. In the states I felt so Swedish and now that I am living here I somehow feel kind of unswedish.
The corridor into the labs. This lab is a lot more strict when it comes to keeping everything sterile. The cleaning procedures are rigorous and extensive. I even dream about the smell of the cleaning solutions at night. All surfaces constantly have to be wiped with both alcohol and with cleaning solution. I don´t mind cleaning but this is a lot even for me that likes cleaning.
This is the break room. This is very nice and very Swedish. Here there are several fridges as well as microwaves and comfortable chairs. Both coffee and tea are free. You eat lunch with you collages that also bring their own lunch for the most part. Some people go out to eat but it seems like most usually bring their lunch boxes.
Right now I have to focus and remind myself of all the good things. There are plenty of great things such as yummy Kalles kaviar (smoked salmon roe that many Swedes including me and C love to put on our egg sandwiches). This morning I went to my favorite bakery at Vallhallavägen. Mmmm it smelled divine in there. They open at eight on Saturday mornings and already so early there was a long line of people. I had just been out on a morning jog and was really hungry as I entered the bakery. I wanted to buy one of each of everything they had but I stopped myself and hurried home to fix breakfast before I actually did buy one of each and spent all my money at the bakery.
But I do miss:
I miss Costco a lot. I miss the large quantities of fresh and great produce.
I miss the prewashed spinach, here the spinach still has traces of soil.Miss Alton Brown and his “Good Eats” program on tv.
Well I guess things will all turn out better and better with time as we adjust and as we become more familiar with our new work places. Also I think that everything feels even more confusing and strange right now as we have been living here and there for short periods since we got here. Even if we are moving to a place next week that is not our own still we will be able to stay there for a longer period and also it will probably feel a lot more home when our stuff arrives.